Whats a word or words to describe me or how would you describe me?

If someone insults me or hurt me i will cry a lot in the inside cause i got made fun of for 7 yrs n im only 11 and act like i dnt care in the outside n im realyathleticc n i say things i dnt mean for some reason to get a good reaction from people i have a lot of friends even if ppl say i dnt and im reaaggressiveive when im not schoolool even wen ppl think im soft snd a pushover (a pushover is someone whos lets people do stuff to them) i change alot for somereason i dnt know y n i act gloomy n depreesed at skool n ppl think im thinking something wen im really not